“Forever Movies” whilst in Isolation

Right so the plan is to get away from all the negativity around us….. you with me? …. Lets try and look at positive things, lets try and think of how we are to make things better for us, and how we are to play with things going forward… my next sets of blogs will be around this type of content, (unless good ‘ol Boris gets on my nerves again)

Very soon a hell of a lot of us will be in isolation, ( some of you may already be in isolation) and this isolation will either be 7 days or 14 days accordingly.

It sounds so perfect on the outside, no schools, no work, waking up late, staying in pj’s all day………..but for me it sounds like torture!! I cant do it, I am already loosing my head thinking of it, I love routine, I love my freedom, I love fresh air, and I love…… not having my family in my face all day…… “Absence makes the heart grow fonder” and that shizz works better for me….

So the first thing I have done is created a list of what I call ‘Forever Movies’ ( actually I don’t know if I call it that, or I have heard it somewhere) the reason why I called them forever movies is because….. well … you can watch them Forever… as in over and over and over…..and the plan is to watch one a day… minimum…

Here’s my list: (make sure you do your own)

  1. Pretty Woman (1990)

Genre: Romance/Comedy

Julia Roberts and Richard Gere. This movie is everyone’s ‘Forever Movie‘ How can it not be?!

2. Basic Instinct (1992)

Genre: Drama/Mystery

Sharon Stone and Michael Douglas. What a powerful combination. What a powerful movie. What a powerful message.

3. Indecent Proposal (1993)

Genre: Drama/Romance

Demi Moore, Robert Redford. This is a Heart Stopper.

4. Cruel Intentions (1999)

Genre: Drama/Thriller

Sarah michelle Geller, Reese Witherspoon, Ryan Phillipe, Selma Blair, Joshu Jackson. Can you get a more beautiful cast?

5. Goonies (1985)

Genre: Adventure

OK OK I know this ones a wildcard but I always remember my childhood when I watch this, so its on my list, Im not going to bother with the actors name- I dont evan know who they are. Classic film for me.

6. Big (1988)

Genre: Fantasy/ Drama

Tom hanks (he’s in isolation right now) so I will watch it in memory of him. This one usually comes on at christmas time, I am going to try and stay away from the christmas movie….. but on this occasion…. just for you Tom!

7. Con Air (1997)

Genre: Thriller/Mystery

Nicholas Cage, Steve Busceni, John Cusack. Love this movie! Always in my hit list.

8. Notting Hill (1999)

Genre: Drama/ Romance

Hugh Grant and Julia Roberts. Need I say more?

9. My Best Friends Wedding

Genre: Drama/Romance

Julia Roberts, Dermot Mulroney, Cameron Diaz. If it’s got Julia Roberts it’s a winner….

10. Four weddings and a Funeral (1994)

Genre: drama/romance

Hugh Grant, Andie Mcdowell. I think I have something for Hugh Grant, and I think I just realised it whilst doing this post.

So that’s my top 10. I chose these from like the 100’s I had, I will definately be revisiting these if I go into isolation. Along with all the Harry Potter’s obviously!

Let me know what your ‘Forever Movies’ are, I may need to add more to my list.

Stay safe

Love and regards

M11bna

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A little Kindness in this Cruel World…..

6 years ago I went back to my birth country of Malawi, in Africa. We stayed at my aunt’s house. The only thing I wanted to take back home are these drinks called “Cherry Plum”. I adore cherry plum. If anyone is going or coming back from Malawi, my cherry plum is always on the list…. So this time since I was going, I was going to bring back cherry plum for everyone, and at least a years supply for me…….,But…. there was none….in the whole city of Malawi.

I went crazy looking for them, I drove my aunt crazy, the whole 2 weeks I was there, whilst we were out and about, that’s all we looked for. We ended up going to the small street vendors, the ladies who sell on the edge of the road… But there was none…. I was loosing my head. So too was my Aunt.

I remember telling my hubby whom I had left behind. He thought I was joking : “So your telling me, in the whole of Malawi there is not Evan one bottle of Cherryplum?” …. Urm Yes.

We found out that the factory had been closed for the past couple months because one of the machinery had gone faulty….. Let me explain this to you guys…. A COCA COLA factory in Malawi was shut down for a couple of months because of ONE machine that was not working… How bizzare does that sound?

I remember telling my husband this and he scoffed over the phone – ” it’s a Coca Cola factory- they wouldnt shut it for a day,”.. …… But this is Africa baby!

… it did start up again, and I get my regular cherry plum again for my friends and family… But I’m remembering this now because of the whole Coronavirus situation we have going on.

I’ve not stocked up, I have no intention to stock up. Evan if we were to go into lock down, the shops would still be open… But I do my regular shop on a Monday…. And OMG was I thrown back to 6 years ago when I was in Malawi. The supermarkets are empty, there is no food, and if there is it’s triple price. We ARE in BRITAIN people. Not a third world country. Why are we behaving like this!

I keep seeing these pictures of all these old people in supermarkets and they have nothing in their baskets- why? Because stupid people do stupid things! Come on people- at a time like this we are meant to be looking out for each other, and we are penalising the ones who are going to be attacked by this virus the most. Do they really need to be worrying about their shopping or the price of their shopping at this age?

Seeing these posts make me so disappointed in humankind. This virus is sopposed to bring us all together, not break us apart!

The worst is, the people who are using the virus as a means to make profit. I detest these people. Absolutely detest them. How dare YOU! ( Im getting too passionate again) ….. Im going to leave it as ……..I believe in karma.

We all need to calm down. We need to be reasonable. And WE NEED TO HELP EACH OTHER.

So here are the few ways in which we can help each other:

I got a letter today- and it was the sweetest. Kindness does exist

So we now have a WhatsApp group and we will liaise with each other. I have alot of elderly around me, so I feel alot better knowing that there are a few of us who can help.

Also when I next go shopping I will be buying extras- but only to pass on to the most needy. I will give them at the same price and not the over inflated prices that the shop people are taking advantage off.

Here’s another note which can be passed on,

Print these out and post them to neighbours, especially the elderly.

Alot of parents are anxious about the schools closing, especially because they can’t afford the extra meals they will have to cater for, a simple message has been put out on Facebook, for all those parents who have anxiety to just message me, and I will help out in any way I can. Whether that be cooked meals or dropping off abit of shopping. Please do the same if you can afford to x

A little Kindness can help make the world a better and brighter place. We are going to go through this, whether our houses are stocked up or not. There is no where to hide or disappear, so let’s do what we can to help each other out as much as possible. Let’s make the world a better place.

Love and regards

M11bna

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…..I got Grey Hair and I Cannot lie…

Ok, so who saw the friends refrencing in the title? Who saw it? Who saw it? Tell me, tell me….

I just got excited. Friends are coming back for one more episode. They are coming back for an hour long episode! did you hear that?…. I’m so damn excited. I Actually jumped when I saw it …… Then I refused to believe it… then I went into Denial…… And then it was all over instagram- and the internet went crazy! And so did I. (Im still jumping)

I’m dead excited? Are you? …. It’s either going to be the best ever, or something that never should have happened…. We won’t know until we see it…. And see it I must!!!

So back to grey hairs. I’m ageing. I don’t like it. My once upon a time jet black locks- look tired, and dull and……. grey. Like my dry skin- I’m having trouble with this ageing thing. Big trouble.

I have two options, like the friends episode, either I’ll embrace it, or I’ll go through some mental episode.. aka mid life crisis… Good thing is you guys will be here with me, to witness it,…. Oh god. Is that Even good?

This post really isn’t about my grey hair, although it is, it really is, but generally more about ageing….. And my grey hair …

I will call it……. Ageing gracefully

No Nonsense Bullsheesh (Kebabs. because I don’t like swearing)

When I was younger I use to wonder why older people were so shrewd, so self centrered, and selfish. Now I’m old(er) I want to be all those things rolled into one! Part of growing older, is also getting wiser. I would say I got wiser alot later than most people in life, because generally I am was a more naive and generally forgiving person. (The thing about studying psychology is, Evan when your hurt, you try and figure out why the other person wants to hurt you, rather than feeling the hurt itself).

Its the lessons in life, and people in life that teach you to become more selfish, self centered and shrewd. Almost like a ‘survival of the fittest’ approach. So my number one motto for ageing gracefully, is taking a ‘ no nonsense’ approach to bullsheesh ( kebabs).

Negativity

Do you sometimes feel low? unhappy? annoyed? generally miserable?….. think about what you were doing before you felt this way. And what it was that made you feel this way. More often then not these feelings come into place after you have spent time with negative people. Once you have recognised a negative person, stay away from them. Always think Positive, and be thankful for all life throws at you. You whole outlook in life will change….. and it will also keep the wrinkles at bay…

Stress

Scientists have found that too much stress can make our hair white, and unfortunately it doesnt go back to black once the stress is gone (now wouldn’t that be cool?) But how can stress be avoided? With lifes trial and tribulations it cant. It really can’t. But there are ways to manage and handle stress, whether its Yoga, Meditation, Power Nap or just switching off all the technology and going for a walk. Do what suits you….. But Do it and Handle it!

Over- Indulgence

Up to the age of 33, I had the flattest stomach ever. Now alongside my grey hair, my dry skin, my temper, my hormones, my stomach was feeling left out- so its joined the ageing team and popped out. I just cannot eat as I use too, without feeling bloated. My diet is awful! always has been, but as Age increases the Diet has to be looked at, not just for the sake of the stomach, the wrong diet affects hair, teeth, skin, health….everything!

Over Indulgences will be kept only for special occasions…. and special occasions start on fridays? right? every friday? No. No. No. Dont do it. Birthdays and Weddings only, ok?! OK?

Mental Health

Theres a medical term for being scared of ageing. Did you know that? its called ‘Gerascophobia’– mainly to do with being lonelier as you grow older and coming to terms with the fact that the body and health can and will change. Im already feeling it. I know im going to struggle with this, because all it takes is for me to feel tired after a shopping trip and I go into melt down. (God help my hubby and kids…. and make them patient to endure me)

So my strategy is to embrace it, and take things more easier, and acknowledge that errands may take longer, illnesses may take longer to overcome, and shopping trips…… well we can go away for a whole weekend and enjoy it instead.

And im going to start all this by…. dyeing my hair. Im thinking BLUE, Blacks abit boring now……… see… mid life crisis fully on way!!

Love and Regards

M11bna

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Is Man Flu a Real thing?

In comes the hubby, breathing heavily, dark eye circles, face dropped, holding his hand to his chest “It’s Man flu” he said,

“What? Flu? ” I responded,

“Man flu, Man flu” he responded so confidently

“Urm.. Is that a thing?…uh…”

” That’s what the Doctor said”

“Are you sure the doctor said MAN flu?” I asked in disbelief. Surely he’s taking the piss? And surely my husband knows what Man flu actually is? Does he?

He grabbed the hot water bottle that I had ready for him and made his way upstairs to bed.

My heads frazzled, Man flu! Man flu, the doctor said Man flu, is that a thing? I always thought Man flu was over exaggerated flu- suffered by a man…. So is the doctor taking the piss, (are they allowed to do that?) Or is there a condition called ‘Man Flu”.

I wanted to laugh, but what if I’m wrong? So before I decide to take the piss, I go onto Google,

Yup. I am right “A cold or similar minor ailment as experienced by a man who is regarded as exaggerating the severity of the symptoms”. This made me realise how much a person of authority has power, the doctor totally took the piss out his patient, and the patient believed him- because he is the ‘Doctor’.

I’m not so sure the doctor should be saying these things, especially because the hubby has taken him seriously, and calling everyone and saying he’s got ‘Man Flu’ ultimately making himself look bad. I’m in so much shock no one corrected him yet….. Seriously guys he’s not that scary! but I guess the good thing is we can have a laugh about it.

I mean this is just flu we talking about, We all know that if men had to carry babies, the human race would be extinct by now. Luckily for us and especially the Men, responsibility of that lies on the women. (*eye roll*)

But then I decided to research more- you know how it is, it starts off with researching for flu, ends up browsing with a full shopping basket, and empty bank balance… I’ve not put card details in yet, but it’s coming.

Dr Kyle Sue, a Canadian doctor, has found that men’s immune system is less resilient then a womens immune system, and that is due to testosterone in men with supresses the immune system, whilst a womens sex hormone boosts the system, allowing them to fight the flu and also overcome it more quickly. (Sounds like Freudian shizz to me).

And Dr Kyle Sues suggestion for recovery: “Perhaps now is the time for male friendly spaces, equipped with enormous televisions and reclining chairs, to be set up where men can recover from the debilitating effects of man flu in safety and comfort.”

I see you all reading that again, and again, and over and over. Trust me I did the same. I’m also on google, trying to find out where this imbecile lives so that I can throttle him. (If you do find out. Do let me know- and it would be an even bigger pleasure if you’d join me.)

Needless to say Dr Kyle Sue, obviously at one point in his life has been told he is suffering from …. Man flu, (the female version not the scientific version). And couldn’t handle it. (Testosterone and that)

And luckily for us, a lot more doctors believe that the flu is gender neutral. So Dr Kyle needs to move onto something new. (Can you hate someone you don’t know?) I suggest he carries a baby!

Going back to the Man flu though, my best remedy: Night Nurse. Overdosed for 5 days straight, so they just sleep through it, because seriously this man flu affects the whole household.

And now that Dr Kyle has ruined my day, I’ve added even more things to my shopping basket. Ready to check out. Hope you enjoyed the read, let me know your thoughts.

Love and regards

M11bna

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Tooth Update

So back to my tooth. I’m thinking of adding a tab on my contents just for my tooth journey, as it’s proving to be a long ride.

It’s been 3 weeks and I’ve not suffered any pain at all, since the tooth was filled in from the previous appointment of the failed root canal.

From the two options I decided on the extraction. Once its gone at least I know the pain will never come back. With the Root Canal, there’s no guarantee that it’ll solve the problem.

I did have anxiety- not over the procedure because I knew I was going to a specialist, I knew the procedure will probably be the easiest I’ve ever had. I had anxiety because I knew would be in pain after, I was worried about how long the pain would last, and whether it would get infected or not.

I was actually quite pleased to be going to a specialist, as I knew the procedure would take 20 minutes maximum and the tooth would be out, rather than the one and a half hour it took at my last appointment.

Before I went in, I spoke to a girl sitting outside who was having 3 tooth taken out, and she had been here previously and although uncomfortable she was quite upbeat about it. That put me at ease. I was only having one taken out.

Once inside, I made sure I asked the dentist to make sure it was the right anaesthetic, and if my dentist had made him aware of my situation. He advised me he would give me the adrenaline and yes, he was made aware, and that was why she had sent me to him.

I did ask him again, that the adrenaline makes my bp go low and I end up collapsing and vomiting. He assured me that he was using the right one.

Should I ask you to guess what happened?

As soon as he put the first one in, my heart started palpitating. He assured me it was all normal, and it should take 2/3 minutes before it slows back down. He then put another 2 in, at the front and the side of my tooth.

Back at reception, I waited for the adrenaline to kick in and numb my tooth. And then….. It all started…

The room started spinning, I started spinning, I remember someone asking if i was ok, I said ‘no’. The floor beneath me was going further and further down, I was falling, my body started shaking. I heard them say ‘take her to the back’ I remember trying to get up, but the floor kept disappearing beneath me, I kept falling, I knew I was being dragged to a room in the back, I could feel eyes all over me.

At the back they lay me down, my body was shaking furiously, they asked if I’m cold. I was too hot. I said “hot, too hot”, I removed my jumper, my scarf. One of the ladies got me a cold wet towel and put on my forehead, it felt wonderful. I told her, she started to put over my eyes and my face, my body was still shaking.

They told me to open my eyes, I couldn’t do it, the ceiling was moving, and then I felt the bile in my throat, and the next minute I threw up…. All over the place. Like everywhere. Spluttered. It was awful. It felt like pregnancy and morning sickness all over again.

Do you want me to carry on? Because it doesn’t get better.

The end of it, well my tooth is still in my mouth, but how long before it starts hurting- we don’t know.

I do remember one of the ladies saying that I should be referred to the hospital, and why haven’t I been referred if this happens all the time. I’m really hoping for this.

I don’t remember much of what the dentist said, its all a blur, but there were talks of doctors, and waiting, and letters, and hospitals and operation.

I’ll have to call in and find out further on Monday.

This tooth situation really troubles me, its so horrible to have all eyes on you. I hate being helpless, I hate that people have to clean up after me, I hate that they have to look after me. I hate that my husband sees me in this state.

The hubby took a very tearful and disorientated me home, and I slept until the adrenline wore off, which was roughly 4 hours. Ive got up now, still feel a bit dizzy, but I’m talking and walking, and writing this. May need a couple more hours before I’m back to normal, and get through this trauma again.

There has to be another way. I can’t go through this again. And I can’t expect others to go through this also.

I Just needed a vent.

Remember me in your prayers

I’ll keep you all updated

Love and regards

M11bna

The Perfect Planner

It’s that time of year, where I start looking for diaries……I know I know. We have phones- and they are capable of holding all our information, like birthdays and appointments, but it’s just not the same for me. I need the feel of pen and paper, I like opening pages and looking in. And more importantly I love my diary to have a bit of character.

I’ve actually been searching for over a month now, and though the internet has so many options, I still haven’t found the perfect one. Sometimes when we are given more options, it makes us more fussy.

I’ll share what I have been using last couple of years.

I love photos, I love taking photos, whether that be of myself, my family, or scenic. And I love diaries, so what better combination. I made these diaries online on printerpix. It takes a bit of time, but it’s so nice to cherish, and it’s lovely to see pictures and memories. It’s a weekly diary and you can add a picture on for every week. Do keep 52 pictures ready.

Initially this was perfect for me, when I was working at BT Openreach. Enough to put in birthdays, appointments, anniversaries, training dates, school holidays etc, but as soon as my baking kicked off full time, I was running out of space. I needed more, and I wanted more of a professional look.

Then I found these babies

The Hello Day Planners. I’m not kidding when I say I fell in love with them. I’ve used them 4 years in a row as I’ve never been able to find anything better. They are so stylish and beautiful. And they are presented so well…. Have a look on YouTube for the unveiling. They come in gorgeous boxes, wrapped in tissue paper, with special cards. Honestly it’s like owning a designer bag. I look so forward to opening it up. I’ve also done unveiling videos in my insta stories. ( I know so sad) but …. Take my word for it …. Look on YouTube.. … ‘Hello Day planner unveiling’ . I guarantee you’ll put it in your Christmas wish list.

But it’s not just the packaging that enticed me, the packaging was a bonus as when I purchased my first one (after alot of ‘oh I don’t know if I should’ as at £46 it’s not exactly cheap- as the hubby says- the pound shop have loads of diaries!) It’s the whole product and what it offers.

With business now booming I needed a day to day planner, and I also need it to offer me more than just dates, and this planner does exactly that:

It’s a day a page- with a remainder to be grateful every morning, as well as a water and exercise plan. A quote of the day to keep you going, and a full page dedicated to what you need to do for the day.
Every month has its own beautiful plastic tab, and did you see the gold rims? Just how beautiful are they?
Before you start- you can put your yearly goals in, and it also allows you to check your progress every quarter.
My favourite page. Budgeting. Keep a track of your going ins and your going outs.
Every month has a full 2 page month at a glance page where you can note down important things briefly.
Also every month starts off with a goal planning page, put down your goals, things to do, and then finishes off with a end of month reflection.
Before the start of the week a page is dedicated to a glance of the full week.
Each day to day page has a blank space which I used to draw my cakes. Perfect for me to be able to picture it all

And then at the front and back there are empty pages just to use for own pleasure- I used these to put down my pricing for events and cakes. And the standard the year at a glance and important Telephone numbers.

I can’t think of anything else I would need in my planner.

So why Am I searching?

Well I no longer have my business and my diary looks like this now. Loads of blanks.

As much as I love my diary it’s too big and empty for me now. I need to switch back to weekly, yet the photo ones do not do it for me anymore

I want the Hello day qualities in a weekly planner.,and yes Hello Day do offer them. But only in 2 designs, (which I’m not keen on) and they lack the beauty the big ones have.

So I’m searching frantically for the perfect diary. One thing I do love is ‘Google’. As soon as it picks up what you are after- it sends you an immense amount of links, and I have found quite a few companies that do very similer planners to Hello Day. But I feel guilty about getting it (how is that Evan possible!) But I really do. I’m passionate about my diary. It’s my key accessory. I rave to anyone I know about my diary- you would think I work for Helloday (if they are jobs available- do let me know).

From the suggestions by Google I have 4 diaries on my mind.

1. Helloday Planner

Always number one, but I also have alot of guilt. £36.00. Have a look at their collection here : www.hellodayplanner.co.uk

2. BusyB

The price is a bonus, it has the full monthly page, weekly dates, budget planning. £15.99 . Find the BusyB collection here www.busyb.co.uk

3. Daily Greatness

I’m really leaning towards this. Love the leather pouch, it has so much going on inside, and very colourful. Abit on the dearer side but I do use my diaries throughout the year- so will be worth it. £89.00. Look at the collection here www.dailygreatness.co.uk

4. Amelia Lane

Looks so much like the Helloday but more colourful. Has the yearly, weekly and monthly break downs inside. Also budget planning. Same price as hello Day. £36.00. look at the collection here www.amelialanepaper.co.uk

And now I’m going to ignore all other suggestions by Google, and decide on one from the above, because I seriously cannot be adding more to my list.

Let’s see which one I end up going for.

Love and regards

M11bna

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Are we all just Drug Addicts?

Years ago I remember looking at my mother in law’s kitchen cupboard- a whole shelf dedicated to medicine.

My mother in law suffers from mild depression, has varicose veins, has high BP and has suffered a tumour in the brain. My father in- law is a diabetic and has suffered a heart attack, and also has high blood pressure. Both of them together take probably up to 30 tablets a day between them, and most of the tablets are their to counter off the side attacks that the first tablet gives.

A viscious cycle.

I couldn’t understand it. It was beyond my naive mind of reasoning .I would see them both take these medications, up to 3 times a day for years on end, and yet although they are up and about- they have not had any improvements? What is the porpose then? Has their body become immune to the medication? Is it all in the brain? Could the body not function without it? Would they really get worse if they slowely- stopped taking some of the medication?

At my house all I had was a small box and that had Calpol for the Boi, A Paracetamol packet, a Nurofen packet, a Bongela and Cough medicine. And that’s how it had been for years. We use to renew our cough medicine and Paracetamol and Nurofen every time it went out of date because we weren’t using it. Ever.

That was then.

Fast forward a couple of years- I opened the medicine cabinet in my own house. I have 2 shelves full of medication, and yes with my constant suffering of tooth pain- I’m a pill popper.

How and when did this happen?

Well, firstly . The damn tooth, so we have got Ibuprofen, Paracetamol, Amoxicillin, Oragel, Pain out, Clove oil. Then I suffer from menorrhagia – so I have Transexamic acid on standby along with naproxen. I’m also anaemic….and then the hubby has a heart condition- and let’s not get into the details of the medication there.

Not to forget the standard cough medication, for dry cough, for wet cough, night nurse, and every other cough medicine you can think of. Eye drops, milk of magnesia, Iron supplements, Vitamin C, Vitamin D, and now ….. (Breathes heavily) I’ve emptied my whole cupboard out, so I’m going to have to clean up and put it all away.

When did we become these pill popping drug addictive humans? Are we all conditioned to turn into this?

Alternative medicine is becoming popular, and I’m noticing that even doctors are willing to talk about this alongside medicine. I am a big fan of it, but in all reality on most cases it only offers an temporary solution. For example- clove oil for my tooth. It gives me relief for a couple of hours but then I’m back in pain, and the ‘over the counter’ medications work longer and better.

So how do we get away from this drug culture? What Evan is a Drug? Medication is a drug, toxic drugs is a drug. Do alcohol, nicotine and caffeine come into drugs? They are all addictive?

With my condition, how do I Evan get away from the medication that’s prescribed to me?

A Lifestyle change would probably be the best answer, but with our world’s being so fast, it’s so much more easier to have the fizzy drink, than buy a health bar- and cost wise aswell, the foods that are bad for you are cheaper than the healthy food. Also in this fast paced world there’s no real time to cook the healthy stuff, it’s easier to chuck a burger in the oven, and frozen chips in the fryer- then to start chopping up vegetables. Not to say I won’t try. I will and I must.

Also how can a lifestyle change help my menorrhagia? I don’t think it can. So how do I overcome that?

So all in all, can we really get away from medication? With all the health condition we can get as we grow older -it seems impossible.

I’m just a drug addict like my inlaws. And the other millions in the world. Our bodies really cannot function without it.

The funniest thing is, as I was popping yet another nurofen and 2 paracetamol into my mouth for my toothpain , my Boy just said “Mum you have more pills than food!” . My Boy I replied. “Karma is a very funny thing!”

Love and regards

M11bna

Root Canal or Extraction? Please Advise?

It’s been just over 3 weeks now and I’m still suffering. Tooth pain is by far the worst pain ever.

Before I jetted off to India with an infected tooth, I had decided on a Root Canal treatment. As soon as I got back I went in for the procedure.

Having already told you of the many ‘special requirements ‘ that have to be put into place before I go in for my appointment, the dentist had arranged for a slot of 90 minutes for me.

I had been advised that Root canal is the best option for me, and whilst in India I realised it definately is. My two chewing teeth on the bottom left are already gone, and this tooth is a chewing tooth on the bottom right. And whilst eating I struggled a lot because on the left I have no teeth and on the right it was infected so I couldn’t put food their. And my front teeth were being used for chewing which is a long and draining process.

Whilst going through the procedure- everything was great- it was all going perfectly well. The dentist was impressed with me. 2 out of the 3 nerves were already out. I had mentally told myself to think of events in my life that have caused me pain, and this really helped- so I started thinking of pregnancy, labour, people who have hurt me, etc. And it really helped with the process and also sped up time.

Then the x-ray part came. I hate this. But I told myself to think it away. It was a challenge let me tell you this.

After trying for the 6th time,(this is why the extra time is needed) I finally got it in place, and was doing my breathing exercises whilst thinking in my head how I was going to throttle this particuler person I’m not fond of. (I promise you it’s not my dentist. I love her for real,… And It works. Trust me!) And guess what…

Just my luck…. The x-ray machine was not working. She tried 3 times, whilst I kept picturing these murderous events in my head trying not to think of the film wedged in my mouth….. It was not working today!! As soon as she told me this- my gagging started straight away. Bless my dentist as she struggled to get the thing out of my mouth whilst I was retching.

Once It was out, she filled my tooth back in and I was ready to go. I was booked in for another hour appointment the following week.

That was today.

I was feeling positive today, I knew the procedure, just one more nerve and then it’s all done. Right? …

Wrong. After the xray- which I was so much more better at this time (only 2 attempts!) She had trouble in locating the nerve. Although the x-ray is showing a nerve- there is usually a tiny space in between. This space was not showing on the x-ray.

This appointment although booked for an hour took an hour and a half in her trying to get to the nerve.

She had the x-ray checked with another dentist- and Evan tried drilling a bit more to see if she could get to it. But she didn’t feel comfortable in drilling further.

Once again she filled it all back up and sat me up.

Now I’ve got to decide. I either get the root canal done by a specialist- which means the same process again, but the specialist will know how to remove the nerve. However there is no guarantee that there will be no pain or infection after. She will pass on all my details and get the specialist prepared for my case. This could cost upto £600, but it will save a tooth

Or

I get it removed entirely. And that also by a specialist whom she will refer me too. Cost will be £70, but I will be left with no tooth- therefore need to consider a bridge if possible or an implant (prices of these not discussed yet)

I was quite confused as to why she would send me to specialist as she had done the last one- so I asked her. Her response was that the trauma that I went through on the last tooth- was not only mine. She went through alot of anxiety and trauma herself, as she didn’t know whether I would collapse, or throw up or Evan worse. And she wouldn’t want me to go through that again, or herself and would rather I get it done by a specialist who may have already dealt with ‘cases’ like myself.

That was a fair comment and I respected her for that.

But now? What do I do?

Root canal is what I definitely wanted doing initially, as I don’t want that gap, but I seriously can’t handle it if I have to then remove it afterwards anyway.

What do I do?

Keep me in your prayers people

Love and regards

M11bna

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